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Saturday, August 02, 2014


This happen 7 years ago, many time I wanted to blog about it but just can't get it probably written or elaborate it well enough to read,  I really want to share my experience, so you can be aware and know when a "Heart  Attack" is coming before it actually attack you.  I have got so much to said and explain that it have to be in a few entries, please be patient, if you have any questions I'll be glad to answer them with my experience. 

 It was 18/2/2007 2nd day of the Lunar New Year, it suppose to be a very special day celebration for us as a Cantonese.  Open house with plenty of food and not leaving out the 'Rainbow Yeesang' symbol of prosperity.  It was great lunch with family and friends after prayers.  Mahjong is the game that our family enjoy the most and we usually play only once a year during this time and I love it.  While playing the game I was actually feeling  pain on my chest off and on, thinking it was no big deal because lately I have been having on off chest pain once in a while that come and go very quickly so I just ignore it. 
Well....... was expecting 2 of my friends from KL to visit today,  when they called that they had arrived Kluang I was very excited and kind of rushing to keep everything in order around the house....and my chest pain increases, starting to  perspired...when they arrived I tried to act normal but the pain was starting to be unbearable and I sweat so badly that it was noticeable by my daughter she said it might be some kind of food poisoning or gastric because the pain is in the middle of my chest, she ask me to go to my room and rest, so.... nobody suspect it was a heart attack further more I'll be the last person  in the family to have a cardiac problem because I am the only one that exercise almost everyday.  Food poisoning will be the cause of the pain.. because of the yeesang(shashimi) we took during lunch time, conclusion.  By now I was sweating furiously and breathing was rapid, felt like vomiting, tummy ache, my head spinning and the pain was so bad it's no way that I can's a very sharp pain kind of like someone cut you deeply with a knife, my eye was closing due to lacking of oxygen and I know I have to prolong my consciousness I cannot be breathing so fast I'll get fits, so I started to breath in and out with 5 counts.  Bear in mind that my KL friends is still in the sitting room entertain by my daughter, I try to prolong with my breathing exercise and kept awake at least till my daughter come in.  I really don't know how long that was... maybe 10 to 15 mins or more. I tried very hard to keep my eye open, sitting up and walked around my room because my eye was closing when I lie down, somehow I knew if I close my eye I might not be able to wake up ever again.... Finally....  my friends left and my daughter walk into my room... almost immediately  I felt on my bed and pass out.  According to my her my skin color changers from the normal skin color, to red, purple and then to dark purple lastly... white foam came out of my mouth and she cannot find my pulse, my heart stop....

The story begin from here..".WHAT HAPPEN AFTER MY HEART STOPPED" Well...suddenly I was in this very huge piece of green land that looks like a garden but no flower just huge trees and beautiful soft grass, looks very serene and beautiful, at the far end I saw this big black log or burnt tree trunk that looks like a black tunnel believed me, I was walking toward the same time I heard my daughter telling my brother that I have no pulse very clearly I heard her saying "my mommy is death", very loudly my brother said "NO" and suddenly I can heard my family shouting and calling out my name.  Surprisingly at this moment I told myself I cannot die.....I must not walk towards the black hole I must walk back because my daughter is not yet married and if I die she'll be left all alone... this was my real concern really, I told myself I must not walk toward the black hole, I must turn I woke up feeling very very cold,  and that was my first seizure. 
It's not a joke I had 4 seizure, that means my heart stopped 4 time withing 20mins from home to hospital that very day.  The 2nd seizure came just min away from the 1st one....I had more to tell you in my next entry....because it's quite late now...Oh daughter was doing CPR in her own way pounding on my chest to bring my heart beat  back.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Not Easy....keep going...

It's already almost 16mths since I moved to Kuala Lumpur to stayed with my daughter to help out with the  baby who is already 15mths now.  So here really not bad at all, apart from helping out with the baby I goes to the gym in the evening to have my own activities but...mainly to make new friends. far most of them is just 'hello, hello' and ...everybody go home after class, that's the reason why I always stay back for the next class.
Anyway...I manage to made a few who share the same interest as me. I happen to met a very nice lady and we became friend we really share the same interest, at the beginning we went for quite a number of activities like Zumba, Karaok and mountain tracking......but guess this is what you call luck and faith....she is always complaining not feeling well, and lately she had 'shingles'on her face around the eye and this made it worse for her, so..all activities had to's almost 2mths now, think she cannot handle it or accept the scare on her face...felt so sorry for her she is always in pain, if is not her head is her eye and so on, so you see my really first friend in KL.
Well...not to worry I had a few more friends from the yoga class, we get along well enough..initially we'll go for coffee and snack after our class.  But than.....this group drinks even if we goes to the hawker center they'll order beer.  Now they goes to the pub to drink and the bill is share by the 5 of us even though the beer was very cheap when we bought it online it is still dollar and cents when you drink you also needs food right?...I am not much of a drinker, just join in for the fun, but this kind of activities cost $$, so you see.... again if is not a sick friend it is a drinking la....

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Astro Flying Experience

 I went into 'YouTube' to look for this movie 'Heaven Is Real' and I came across many other movies except the one that I am looking for.  So I just clicked on reincarnation. Watch a true story in 3 parts about a girl name Manika from India, and than on to 'Life after death'. I am a kind person who love to watch or read about the impossible true life experiences, because me too had such experiences.  
Let's start with dreams....somehow everyone of us will had some kind of dream sometime, and the memories of dreams will be short life and kind of blur right? From my experience I had a few dreams that was never forgotten, and this is one of them...
Way back in the early 90's I had my first experience of 'Astro Flying' this is what my cousin said the word for such experience. One morning I woke up combing my hair and saw myself lying on bed still sleeping through a mirror, I was in shock thinking I am death and the next minute I woke up still shaking, relate this dream to my dad and he just laugh it off, after this I had few more  and the latest was in June this year when I went to Penang for  a short weekend trip with my cousin and her husband. It all started....I was having my afternoon nap when I heard someone knocking my room door, and I tried to open it..somehow I just couldn't catch the knot it just when pass my hand and I can't open it at the same time I saw myself laying in bed sleeping.  I was so scare that I won't be able to go back to my body, next minute I woke up all sweaty. I related it to my cousin and she told me is call 'Astro Flying'. My cousin said if I think hard enough I can experience it even better, like flying in the universe seeing people whom had pass on...honestly....many time I had told myself, the next 'Astro Flying' I'll experiment it out of my bedroom and see how far I can go but each time I am so frighten And the experiment is forgotten.
Just wonder has any of you had such experience before?
If some of you had follow my blog will know I had a sudden heart attack in 2007, will tell you about what happen next when my heart stopped. 

Monday, May 12, 2014

Thunder goes on and on.......

Nowadays it's always good weather in the morning, and...most of the time it rain in the late afternoon not only rain the thunder goes on and on and on for hours.  It's so loud sometimes it woke my grandson up crying, I have to hug and rock him back to sleep, closing his ear with my hand. 
Why is it that the lighting and thunder is so different from those good old days, it's scary at time, a sudden loud bang which echo for a very long distant. If my grandson is not sleeping I have to hug him and he'll catch me very tightly.
I wonder.... like the old mother's tale...." If someone did something bad or wicked will strike by the lighting", maybe someone up there knows something over in Malaysia that we don't.....hahaha


Sunday, May 11, 2014

A Smell That Linger...

Firstly....  HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all Mommy.  For a day that I will somehow misses my mother much more, my Mom was a wonderful woman which I still has a lot to remember, learn and follow.
As I walk into my room today, I smelt a very familiar aroma.  A smell that linger in my breath every  time l walked into my mom's room, now I understand that "smell", it is the smell of  aging.  That Chinese medicated oil.  The job of relieving bone discomfort. Never knew I am already time flies.  Breathing in the same familiar aroma that lingers in my breath from my very own room.......