Some of you might be surprised to see my lastest entry missing, well...sad to say after posting that entry, mom's condition got worse, so l took it off, really cannot understand why, just pray for the best. Just as she was getting better and suddenlly she became worse, really sad to see mom in this condition not able to tell us what's wrong. l really wish that someone up there gave us a helping hand and guide us.

When l looked at my mom today, l flash back all my 52yrs of life with her. As far back as l can remember my mother is a very very tough and independent woman who never ever once caned us or complained. She worked very hard together with my father just to keep the five of us well fed and taken care off. l remember we were very poor then.............. they was a time that my mom had to cheat a can of milk to feed us,....... ...... with only 0.30cts to spend for a day's expentiture. l remember that when my dad had an accident with hot curry burning both of his legs, and was hospitalised for about 3mths. .......... we didn't have money to pay our rent, and the nasty landlord, while replacing the atap roof he bypassed our room, and when it rained we had to use buckets and pails to prevent water from flooding our tiny room. My mother work so hard that she only sleeps 4hrs a day. She got her driving license at the age of 40+, my father bought an old car, mom used to drive us to a public swimming pool for a swim whenever she was free. Dad will bring the whole family for picnic by the river side. My mother will sew cloths for the whole family during Chinese new year with same material, she said is cheaper to buy the whole roll, and if we were lost in the crowd its easier to spot(haha). Mom is good in almost everything, she is really hard working never once complained about hardship. She was so strong when my dad passed away suddently, and life just goes on................and six years ago she had a very mild stroke because of her strong character she was 80% back to normal, and just as sudden as the first stroke she is now having quite a bad 2nd stroke. l looked at my mother today........it brings so much tears to my eye, she is unable to talk, swallow, walk and...............she is still deterioting, she cannot move her eyeballs to the left, she is not in control of her bowel, just cannot imagine the sadness that she is going through at this moment not being able to get the message across, to express........... and confined to a wheelchair, life is so meaningless for her and yet life have to go on. 'God have his way of doing things',................. what things? may l ask.............. ?

It was a shocking and hectic morning, the wireless bell rang at 7.30am, so the 3 of us when straight to mom's room, only to find her awake wanting to pee, because the maid was not around so she rang the bell. As l looked again, her tube was on the bed, she must have accidently pulled it out while she was asleep, and her last meal was at 12midnight. We just had to act fast, to put it back before she became real hungary. We really did'nt know where we should be heading to........to reinsert the tube, is it to the ward who did the inserting before or the daycare centre who is incharge of the future changeing of the tube or just to the emergency department? Anyway l decided to go to the daycare centre first, since they are suppose to visit us every 2weeks to put in a new tube. Well, the nurse there said it was not their job to insert new tube, they only do the inserting when they house call us in 2weeks time. She advised us to go to the emegercy department, while l was on the way to the emegency we had to pass the ward where they inserted my mom's tube before, so l went to ask the nurse incharge and she also advised us to bring my mom to the emergency departemt and ask them to reinsert. So we went, well, at the reception counter they said "to reinsert we have to go to the out patient govertment clinic at Jalan Mengikboi" which is about 2km away. So we went to the outpatient clinic, l went down first to register and ask what l should do and so on.........so great.... l was asked to take a number and waited for about 3mins they called out my number, went to the counter paid Rm1.00, asked to go to counter 7 spoke to the nurse and was asked to go to room 9 with my mom to do the reinsertion. So we had to wheelchair mom from the car to room 9, asked us to put her on the bed and wait. Hubby and maid was inside with mom, l was outside waiting because l cannot bear to see mom in pain or suffer, it was over in about 20mins. The male nurse that reinserted her was nice according to hubby. It was a terrible morning, the first thing l did when l reached home was to feed her because her last meal was 12midnight and now is already 11am, followed by a bath, and then she took her nap, so did all of us, just got to catch 'cat naps' whenever we can.

Dear Friends and blogger, thankyou so much for visiting my blog ........ to share my experiences, happiness, sadness and so on. As from now (for the time being ......) my entries will consist of information regarding the well being of my mother to inform my other siblings, niece, nephew and relatives about my mom's condition, please bear with me for awhile until mom gets better. Thank you !. _______________________________________ Mom was discharged from the hospital last Saturday 06/09/08. We will be feeding her tru her nose(nasogastric intubation) at home, it is not easy but we are getting on ok so far, except to monitor her sugar level and how much insulin we are suppose to inject. Mom seems to be very weak at mid day and looking better in the evening. Doctor gave her multivit, asprin and metformin(diabetic)......... these medicine to be given while feeding her tru the tube together with "Nestle Nutrition Formula Dietary food". The Dietary food is to be given every 3hrs and a last feed before she goes to bed.

Dear Friends and blogger, thankyou so much for visiting my blog ........ to share my experiences, happiness, sadness and so on. As from now (for the time being ......) my entries will consist of information regarding the well being of my mother to inform my other siblings, niece, nephew and relatives about my mom's condition, please bear with me for awhile until mom gets better. Thank you !. _______________________________________ Sad to say, mom's condition is off and on, it is so so very sad to see her choke on everything that we put into her mouth. She was admitted to the Kluang general hospital yesterday, doctors and nurses were really nice and patient. I accompany mom to JB in an amblulance for a brain CT scan. Doctor said the stroke was quite bad and confirmed it affected her tongue and throat. At the moment doctor put her on intro feeding, it was uneasy at the begining, she did shed a few tears, but only for awhile she was looking good before l left. Guess this is the best we can do for her as doctor's advice.