As the old saying "getting old with money is better then having a son". To think of it..quite true though. If you are not depentant on your children, life is so...so much better, you can actually speak louder and firmly, speak your mind answer with your head high up. Otherwise you just kept quite and said "Sorry"no matter who is in the wrong and then go to your room and cried your heart out, the feeling is always better after a good cry because I cry easy and do that all the time.
The mother is always an idol in the heart of a child because they try their best to give.
Into their teens...they'll ask you for opinion the mother is like an adviser during this time.
Thing started to change a little when they are working and they became the mother's adviser.
Great changes when they have their own kids...everything the mother suggest or do is "Old School".
We as grandparent just follow instruction the maid is smarter and clever than us.
How true it is...being a smart Mom, just blend in...talk when neccessry, just keep quiet and behave, thank God I can divert my attention to my 2 lovely grandsons, they are my consolation...
Friday, November 09, 2018
Friday, September 11, 2015
Life After Death
I came in here mainly because I have a little time and wanted to blog about another subject, found out I had to finish the part 3 of my" Life After Death".
Well...... it was my true experience that I really want to share the few second of my death experiences. 8 yrs ago, but i'st still very clear in my mind.
I felt like fainting, just drop on to my bed and next I was walking towards a very serene land fill with beautiful grass and trees I would said very inviting and relexing, I can see miles and miles of green land, not sure whether I am walking or floating, but.... there's no sign of living creature, no birds, no insect or human only me going toward the far end which I saw a big black log, somehow deep inside me I knew it was the 'Black Hole', and at the same time I also remember we use to joke about the 'Black Hole'," never walk into it and don't follow the light", that's was the first thought that came into my mind. Next I heard my Daughter telling my brother that I am dead no pulse, and I can hear my whole family was shouting and calling me. Through my this experience.... the first 30 to 60 second of death we can actually hear what is happening outside our body communication is possible at this time. This very moment....I knew I am dead and I told myself I cannot die, my daughter is not married yet and she just lost her biological father 6 months ago, she'll be very lonely....at this point I turn back and woke up, I felt like I have gone for ages, but actual facts was only less than 80 secs and that was my first after death experience.
The 2nd seizure came about 90 secs after I woke up, and this time I saw 2 man dress in beige safari pantsuit like those with many pockets and flap over the shoulder, coming to take me with them, but then at the same time I also saw 3 man with back facing me standing in front of my room door fighting them off from taking me. And this time round it took me almost 2 mins to come back according to my daughter, and she thought I was gone because it took too long for my pulse to come back. The minute I woke up I asked them "who is those guys fighting in our house", my brother just grab a blanket wrap me up because I was so cold and turning blue, carry me to the car straight to the hospital. Two more seizure in the hospital but no more drama....hahaha...
And with that my true experience of "Life After Death" final chapter had just completed, hope you enjoy reading....Bye....
Well...... it was my true experience that I really want to share the few second of my death experiences. 8 yrs ago, but i'st still very clear in my mind.
I felt like fainting, just drop on to my bed and next I was walking towards a very serene land fill with beautiful grass and trees I would said very inviting and relexing, I can see miles and miles of green land, not sure whether I am walking or floating, but.... there's no sign of living creature, no birds, no insect or human only me going toward the far end which I saw a big black log, somehow deep inside me I knew it was the 'Black Hole', and at the same time I also remember we use to joke about the 'Black Hole'," never walk into it and don't follow the light", that's was the first thought that came into my mind. Next I heard my Daughter telling my brother that I am dead no pulse, and I can hear my whole family was shouting and calling me. Through my this experience.... the first 30 to 60 second of death we can actually hear what is happening outside our body communication is possible at this time. This very moment....I knew I am dead and I told myself I cannot die, my daughter is not married yet and she just lost her biological father 6 months ago, she'll be very lonely....at this point I turn back and woke up, I felt like I have gone for ages, but actual facts was only less than 80 secs and that was my first after death experience.
The 2nd seizure came about 90 secs after I woke up, and this time I saw 2 man dress in beige safari pantsuit like those with many pockets and flap over the shoulder, coming to take me with them, but then at the same time I also saw 3 man with back facing me standing in front of my room door fighting them off from taking me. And this time round it took me almost 2 mins to come back according to my daughter, and she thought I was gone because it took too long for my pulse to come back. The minute I woke up I asked them "who is those guys fighting in our house", my brother just grab a blanket wrap me up because I was so cold and turning blue, carry me to the car straight to the hospital. Two more seizure in the hospital but no more drama....hahaha...
And with that my true experience of "Life After Death" final chapter had just completed, hope you enjoy reading....Bye....
Friday, June 05, 2015
True Experience Part 2
According to my daughter she just simply pounded on my chest to bring back the pulse, she told me latter that was just a natural reflex when my heart stop, and I came back after a minute or so. Before I could ask what happen the red light came on again, this time round there was no black hole or green land...it was a scene inside the house at the hall. There was this two guy very well dress in beige safari suit, you know those pant suit..... with many pockets and flab on the shoulder unfortunately I cannot remember the face. They were coming to take me with them. Here....I must elaborate....there were no communication but clearly known that they are here to take me with them. As they were walking towards my room I saw three man with their back facing me fighting them off not allowing those two to take me, really fighting you know..and here again my daughter was trying to revived me, and this time she thought she had lost me because it took much longer time compare to the first one for me to breath again. when I came around I kept asking "who are those people fighting in our house". The next was...feeling so very very cold and my brother wrap me with a comforter carried me to the car and to the hospital...
What really happen in the hospital didn't really register in my mind, all I know was being push from 1 room to another with all kind of scan and so on.
Honestly it didn't cross my mind at all that it was a cardiac arrest. Two more seizure in the hospital, the last one was really bad because I was about to go into the lift(according to my daughter) the nurse had to ran down to the ambulance to get the portable shock machine to revived me. Next..I was put in an ambulance off to Johor Specialist Hospital in Johor Baru where cardiac facilities is available and we reached in 90mins, normal drive will be about 1hr 45mins. THUMPS UP to the driver.
Machine was attached to me, I was very lucky that a cardiologist Dr.Shanrom was on duty waited and attended to me immediately. After checking and diagnose me as blockage somewhere near my heart, and he said it's a MIRACLE that I survived 4 seizure, many people can't even survived 3, and surgery must be done immediately, I might not survived another he said. So....the angiogram was done at 1.30am follow by Angioplasty.....just a little blockage behind my heart that bring blood in, a very small one and my heart stopped 4 time.....I was in the ICU for 8hrs transfer to the normal ward for 5days...and Viola.... here I am... relating my experience to you...
And that's my final episode of "WHAT HAPPENED AFTER MY HEART STOP"
Thank-you for waiting.....
Honestly it didn't cross my mind at all that it was a cardiac arrest. Two more seizure in the hospital, the last one was really bad because I was about to go into the lift(according to my daughter) the nurse had to ran down to the ambulance to get the portable shock machine to revived me. Next..I was put in an ambulance off to Johor Specialist Hospital in Johor Baru where cardiac facilities is available and we reached in 90mins, normal drive will be about 1hr 45mins. THUMPS UP to the driver.
Machine was attached to me, I was very lucky that a cardiologist Dr.Shanrom was on duty waited and attended to me immediately. After checking and diagnose me as blockage somewhere near my heart, and he said it's a MIRACLE that I survived 4 seizure, many people can't even survived 3, and surgery must be done immediately, I might not survived another he said. So....the angiogram was done at 1.30am follow by Angioplasty.....just a little blockage behind my heart that bring blood in, a very small one and my heart stopped 4 time.....I was in the ICU for 8hrs transfer to the normal ward for 5days...and Viola.... here I am... relating my experience to you...
And that's my final episode of "WHAT HAPPENED AFTER MY HEART STOP"
Thank-you for waiting.....
Saturday, August 02, 2014
True Experience oF...".WHAT HAPPEN AFTER MY HEART STOPPED" Part 1
This happen 7 years ago, many time I wanted to blog about it but just can't get it probably written or elaborate it well enough to read, I really want to share my experience, so you can be aware and know when a "Heart Attack" is coming before it actually attack you. I have got so much to said and explain that it have to be in a few entries, please be patient, if you have any questions I'll be glad to answer them with my experience.
It was 18/2/2007 2nd day of the Lunar New Year, it suppose to be a very special day celebration for us as a Cantonese. Open house with plenty of food and not leaving out the 'Rainbow Yeesang' symbol of prosperity. It was great lunch with family and friends after prayers. Mahjong is the game that our family enjoy the most and we usually play only once a year during this time and I love it. While playing the game I was actually feeling pain on my chest off and on, thinking it was no big deal because lately I have been having on off chest pain once in a while that come and go very quickly so I just ignore it.
Well....... was expecting 2 of my friends from KL to visit today, when they called that they had arrived Kluang I was very excited and kind of rushing to keep everything in order around the house....and my chest pain increases, starting to perspired...when they arrived I tried to act normal but the pain was starting to be unbearable and I sweat so badly that it was noticeable by my daughter she said it might be some kind of food poisoning or gastric because the pain is in the middle of my chest, she ask me to go to my room and rest, so.... nobody suspect it was a heart attack further more I'll be the last person in the family to have a cardiac problem because I am the only one that exercise almost everyday. Food poisoning will be the cause of the pain.. because of the yeesang(shashimi) we took during lunch time, conclusion. By now I was sweating furiously and breathing was rapid, felt like vomiting, tummy ache, my head spinning and the pain was so bad it's no way that I can elaborate...it's a very sharp pain kind of like someone cut you deeply with a knife, my eye was closing due to lacking of oxygen and I know I have to prolong my consciousness I cannot be breathing so fast I'll get fits, so I started to breath in and out with 5 counts. Bear in mind that my KL friends is still in the sitting room entertain by my daughter, I try to prolong with my breathing exercise and kept awake at least till my daughter come in. I really don't know how long that was... maybe 10 to 15 mins or more. I tried very hard to keep my eye open, sitting up and walked around my room because my eye was closing when I lie down, somehow I knew if I close my eye I might not be able to wake up ever again.... Finally.... my friends left and my daughter walk into my room... almost immediately I felt on my bed and pass out. According to my her my skin color changers from the normal skin color, to red, purple and then to dark purple lastly... white foam came out of my mouth and she cannot find my pulse, my heart stop....
The story begin from here..".WHAT HAPPEN AFTER MY HEART STOPPED" Well...suddenly I was in this very huge piece of green land that looks like a garden but no flower just huge trees and beautiful soft grass, looks very serene and beautiful, at the far end I saw this big black log or burnt tree trunk that looks like a black tunnel believed me, I was walking toward it..at the same time I heard my daughter telling my brother that I have no pulse very clearly I heard her saying "my mommy is death", very loudly my brother said "NO" and suddenly I can heard my family shouting and calling out my name. Surprisingly at this moment I told myself I cannot die.....I must not walk towards the black hole I must walk back because my daughter is not yet married and if I die she'll be left all alone... this was my real concern really, I told myself I must not walk toward the black hole, I must turn back....so I woke up feeling very very cold, and that was my first seizure.
It's not a joke I had 4 seizure, that means my heart stopped 4 time withing 20mins from home to hospital that very day. The 2nd seizure came just min away from the 1st one....I had more to tell you in my next entry....because it's quite late now...Oh yes...my daughter was doing CPR in her own way pounding on my chest to bring my heart beat back.
It was 18/2/2007 2nd day of the Lunar New Year, it suppose to be a very special day celebration for us as a Cantonese. Open house with plenty of food and not leaving out the 'Rainbow Yeesang' symbol of prosperity. It was great lunch with family and friends after prayers. Mahjong is the game that our family enjoy the most and we usually play only once a year during this time and I love it. While playing the game I was actually feeling pain on my chest off and on, thinking it was no big deal because lately I have been having on off chest pain once in a while that come and go very quickly so I just ignore it.
Well....... was expecting 2 of my friends from KL to visit today, when they called that they had arrived Kluang I was very excited and kind of rushing to keep everything in order around the house....and my chest pain increases, starting to perspired...when they arrived I tried to act normal but the pain was starting to be unbearable and I sweat so badly that it was noticeable by my daughter she said it might be some kind of food poisoning or gastric because the pain is in the middle of my chest, she ask me to go to my room and rest, so.... nobody suspect it was a heart attack further more I'll be the last person in the family to have a cardiac problem because I am the only one that exercise almost everyday. Food poisoning will be the cause of the pain.. because of the yeesang(shashimi) we took during lunch time, conclusion. By now I was sweating furiously and breathing was rapid, felt like vomiting, tummy ache, my head spinning and the pain was so bad it's no way that I can elaborate...it's a very sharp pain kind of like someone cut you deeply with a knife, my eye was closing due to lacking of oxygen and I know I have to prolong my consciousness I cannot be breathing so fast I'll get fits, so I started to breath in and out with 5 counts. Bear in mind that my KL friends is still in the sitting room entertain by my daughter, I try to prolong with my breathing exercise and kept awake at least till my daughter come in. I really don't know how long that was... maybe 10 to 15 mins or more. I tried very hard to keep my eye open, sitting up and walked around my room because my eye was closing when I lie down, somehow I knew if I close my eye I might not be able to wake up ever again.... Finally.... my friends left and my daughter walk into my room... almost immediately I felt on my bed and pass out. According to my her my skin color changers from the normal skin color, to red, purple and then to dark purple lastly... white foam came out of my mouth and she cannot find my pulse, my heart stop....
The story begin from here..".WHAT HAPPEN AFTER MY HEART STOPPED" Well...suddenly I was in this very huge piece of green land that looks like a garden but no flower just huge trees and beautiful soft grass, looks very serene and beautiful, at the far end I saw this big black log or burnt tree trunk that looks like a black tunnel believed me, I was walking toward it..at the same time I heard my daughter telling my brother that I have no pulse very clearly I heard her saying "my mommy is death", very loudly my brother said "NO" and suddenly I can heard my family shouting and calling out my name. Surprisingly at this moment I told myself I cannot die.....I must not walk towards the black hole I must walk back because my daughter is not yet married and if I die she'll be left all alone... this was my real concern really, I told myself I must not walk toward the black hole, I must turn back....so I woke up feeling very very cold, and that was my first seizure.
It's not a joke I had 4 seizure, that means my heart stopped 4 time withing 20mins from home to hospital that very day. The 2nd seizure came just min away from the 1st one....I had more to tell you in my next entry....because it's quite late now...Oh yes...my daughter was doing CPR in her own way pounding on my chest to bring my heart beat back.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Not Easy....keep going...
It's already almost 16mths since I moved to Kuala Lumpur to stayed with my daughter to help out with the baby who is already 15mths now. So far....life here really not bad at all, apart from helping out with the baby I goes to the gym in the evening to have my own activities but...mainly to make new friends. Well...so far most of them is just 'hello, hello' and ...everybody go home after class, that's the reason why I always stay back for the next class.
Anyway...I manage to made a few who share the same interest as me. I happen to met a very nice lady and we became friend we really share the same interest, at the beginning we went for quite a number of activities like Zumba, Karaok and mountain tracking......but guess this is what you call luck and faith....she is always complaining not feeling well, and lately she had 'shingles'on her face around the eye and this made it worse for her, so..all activities had to stop...it's almost 2mths now, think she cannot handle it or accept the scare on her face...felt so sorry for her she is always in pain, if is not her head is her eye and so on, so you see my really first friend in KL.
Well...not to worry I had a few more friends from the yoga class, we get along well enough..initially we'll go for coffee and snack after our class. But than.....this group drinks even if we goes to the hawker center they'll order beer. Now they goes to the pub to drink and the bill is share by the 5 of us even though the beer was very cheap when we bought it online it is still dollar and cents when you drink you also needs food right?...I am not much of a drinker, just join in for the fun, but this kind of activities cost $$, so you see.... again if is not a sick friend it is a drinking group...how la....
Anyway...I manage to made a few who share the same interest as me. I happen to met a very nice lady and we became friend we really share the same interest, at the beginning we went for quite a number of activities like Zumba, Karaok and mountain tracking......but guess this is what you call luck and faith....she is always complaining not feeling well, and lately she had 'shingles'on her face around the eye and this made it worse for her, so..all activities had to stop...it's almost 2mths now, think she cannot handle it or accept the scare on her face...felt so sorry for her she is always in pain, if is not her head is her eye and so on, so you see my really first friend in KL.
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Astro Flying Experience
I went into 'YouTube' to look for this movie 'Heaven Is Real' and I came across many other movies except the one that I am looking for. So I just clicked on reincarnation. Watch a true story in 3 parts about a girl name Manika from India, and than on to 'Life after death'. I am a kind person who love to watch or read about the impossible true life experiences, because me too had such experiences.
Let's start with dreams....somehow everyone of us will had some kind of dream sometime, and the memories of dreams will be short life and kind of blur right? From my experience I had a few dreams that was never forgotten, and this is one of them...
Way back in the early 90's I had my first experience of 'Astro Flying' this is what my cousin said the word for such experience. One morning I woke up combing my hair and saw myself lying on bed still sleeping through a mirror, I was in shock thinking I am death and the next minute I woke up still shaking, relate this dream to my dad and he just laugh it off, after this I had few more and the latest was in June this year when I went to Penang for a short weekend trip with my cousin and her husband. It all started....I was having my afternoon nap when I heard someone knocking my room door, and I tried to open it..somehow I just couldn't catch the knot it just when pass my hand and I can't open it at the same time I saw myself laying in bed sleeping. I was so scare that I won't be able to go back to my body, next minute I woke up all sweaty. I related it to my cousin and she told me is call 'Astro Flying'. My cousin said if I think hard enough I can experience it even better, like flying in the universe seeing people whom had pass on...honestly....many time I had told myself, the next 'Astro Flying' I'll experiment it out of my bedroom and see how far I can go but each time I am so frighten And the experiment is forgotten.
Just wonder has any of you had such experience before?
If some of you had follow my blog will know I had a sudden heart attack in 2007, will tell you about what happen next when my heart stopped.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Thunder goes on and on.......
Nowadays it's always good weather in the morning, and...most of the time it rain in the late afternoon not only rain the thunder goes on and on and on for hours. It's so loud sometimes it woke my grandson up crying, I have to hug and rock him back to sleep, closing his ear with my hand.
Why is it that the lighting and thunder is so different from those good old days, it's scary at time, a sudden loud bang which echo for a very long distant. If my grandson is not sleeping I have to hug him and he'll catch me very tightly.
I wonder.... like the old mother's tale...." If someone did something bad or wicked will strike by the lighting", maybe someone up there knows something over in Malaysia that we don't.....hahaha
JUST A THOUGHT
Why is it that the lighting and thunder is so different from those good old days, it's scary at time, a sudden loud bang which echo for a very long distant. If my grandson is not sleeping I have to hug him and he'll catch me very tightly.
I wonder.... like the old mother's tale...." If someone did something bad or wicked will strike by the lighting", maybe someone up there knows something over in Malaysia that we don't.....hahaha
JUST A THOUGHT
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